To My Secret Santa

I guess its bout time i got to writing up in here.
yeah..played Santa this morning..
Josh and Zach loved their gifts.

I Love It

it made me so happy when i left their presents in a sneaky way..hah definately a good way to start the morning..you know?
yea. so tommorow is CHristmas Eve.. it seems like Christmas was so rushed..i dont like it. nevertheless..it is what it is and i am happy..to be with my family and celebrate..even tho i dont really even know if i believe the whole concept of christmas anymore.. I think theres more to it than what people are reading into..
i think the bible..is a Emily Dickinson..a Red Wheelbarrow..and people just arent looking at the Bible figuratively..
i dont know..
maybe i will just go to hell for saying that but..
just think about it..
yea..
so i bought stuff for myself today.. an outfit and two super sweet jackets and moccasins.. i love it.. andi look so hott right now..its not even something to joke about.. fo real
thats my extent of being gangsta..and damn does it feel good.

So..on my christmas list..i put.. OSU Wear, a new cell phone, ipod,digi camera, yadayadayada..
but..
theres thingsi wish more for..that can't simply be put into a box and tied up with ribbon..
I want something to fulfill my soul..
I really just awnt someone to simply spend christmas with..i dont know.. but that just sounds like the best Christmas ever..looking out the window with something i care so much about and watching the snow flakes drizzle to the ground..

umm kinda sounds perfect if you ask me

.

...yea
Josh said he wanted to talk to me soon..i dont really know what thats about..but i could only hope its something good.. i dont know..

he is my ultimate christmas wish

but i dont know if im worthy enought to pray and ask god to grant me this..or if its even worth my time..or if there is even anyone to pray this too

looks like a calling for a miracle
*sigh*
welllll
i wish my imaginary readers..
a merry christmas

*LIZ*